Wednesday, July 4, 2012
“I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries” - Theodore Isaac Rubin
“I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self...The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.” Maya Angelou
Throughout the last few months we have had tumultuous upheavals that strain and crack relationships. I often feel the burden of failure and disappointment. We both realize a rift is there...we want and need it to heal. How? Yes, laughter and memories... But something more, I feel, is needed to rebuild the trust. I think our relationship will change, it can never really go back to the way it was because we are different now, on a new path. My wish is that the transformation will be a strong one and eventually lead us back to joy and hope. But there is always love!